WOW, is really all i can say after the day that I have had! After a long day a work, workouts, cleaning and the phone I am done! Half of the day i have spent on the phone with my family talking about this weekend. This weekend is going the be the ash spreading of my Papa off of his boat in the Columbia, so he can "travel" to the pacific ocean and be with his buddies from the Navy days! This is amazing to me, i have never done something like this before, fulfilling someones wishes. Although it has been quite some time, i still miss him everyday. I miss him more even over stupid things, but mostly when something big happened in my life I would just love to hear his voice again. Well anyways all the family is in town, and my Nana is also moving in to her new place Sunday, so having her get rid of everything and downsize is hard and alot of work (hence the phone calls). All of this happened so fast, but its a good thing. I think this weekend is when it is really going to settle in that Papa is gone, it has just felt like he has been on vacation. I think it will settle in more because we won't be going to Papa and Nana's anymore, it will just be Nana's. I know everything will work out but i just can't help with the hurt in my heart.
All i am going to do now is relax with my book, drink a glass or two of wine and slow down. Try to think about the good, and mot worry about the bad. Its time to snuggle with the kitty's and chill!
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